Cid Highwind's Journal

Final countdown.
So... It's kinda hard t' believe, but it's th' final countdown before Vince and I have our wedding.

Just about everything's set t' go; we got the time, place, people... all I really know about that we gotta do is find somethin' t' wear. Oh, and make sure nothin' happens during the thing itself.

...Wow.

I dunno why, but th' whole thing seemed pretty damn far away up until today. Like there was still loads of time. Weird how that shit creeps up on you, know what I'm sayin'? It's no wonder Marlene's been so damn excited lately (and not jus' cause of visiting Cloud an' Tiff back at Edge, either). It's weird; I was kinda hopin' to talk about this in here (I mean, why the hell else are these journals up here, right?) but I really got no clue what t' say. It's a pretty damn big commitment.

It's like one of those things that happens in your life where you don't really know what'll happen afterward. Like y'know how you were early on in high school, you couldn't really picture what it'd be like when you graduated? Yeah, it's sorta like that now. I mean, I can figure out some of th' shit pretty easily, and o' course lotsa the plans are still in motion.

There's the weddin', then the honeymoon I've been workin' on. And then hopefully plans t' build our own house out by that mini airport I got for my birthday over a year ago. But still.. I mean, hey, married people (if we got any on here). Is it any different? Does it feel differently? I mean, we've been wearin' the rings for a long time now, and that's not gonna change... and I know my feelings aren't gonna change, either.

I love him. Always will. Not a damn thing th' Planet can ever do t' change that.

I guess it's just finally hit me. Vince and I've made all sorts of promises t' each other ever since we started gettin' close (all that, I think, I've managed t' keep up with). But this is sorta the ultimate... spiritual, public promise, I guess. I dunno.

...Heh. Ya'll probably think I'm gettin' cold feet or some shit like that. Naw. I'm jus' an old pilot ramblin' about crap. I know the party's gonna be rockin'; we'll have all sorts of awesome people around, and good food, an' plenty of booze. It'll kick ass.

I guess th' point of this was jus' for me t' figure out how t' say that... I get it. I get how big this is. An' now that I actually do, I'm cool with it.

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I'll see you all around soon. I gotta go make sure Setzer's doin' somethin' productive.

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